For the first time in my life...

I am not excited about my birthday. Growing up birthdays meant going to dances, getting to date, getting to pick where we at out, presents, and attention mostly. Now its quite different. From here on out there aren't really any advances of awesome things to do, only more and more responsibility. What I'm saying is that I don't want to get old. 19 is not old at all, but it is a step closer. Yes of course I am being over dramatic, its what I do. I like being independent, I have always been a little more independent than those my same age. But 19 years old? Thats just crazy talk. From this point on in my life, change will be the norm. Things will never be as they were. But I'm becoming more and more fond of change, and it is my goal to do so. Wow this is just a big paragraph of random crazy. My apologies.